It feels a little bit like they’ve wandered in the desert for the past few years and now they’re finally seeing some water and rest further ahead.
The twins are growing more and more independent every month and are running around playing and pulling pranks from morning until bedtime, but they’re much less of a hassle now. Clara finds that she can actually instruct them to do something and see it get done – albeit with a few stops along the way and some protests.
It makes parenting feel so much more rewarding. Like they’re making little people together, step by step.
Though they’re still fairly high-need children who throw a lot of tantrums and fight a lot with each other, they can play with dolls ad cars for several minutes now without trying to hit each other. Which is a vast improvement.
Unfortunately they no longer nap during the day, so her writing mainly happens when they’ve already gone to bed for the night. But she’s getting good at battling her own sleepiness with coffee and snacks so she has a chance to be a little productive at least.
Clara is also trying to challenge herself and make some more friends among the parents in the neighbourhood. It’s something she’s been neglecting until now but it’s truly a great feeling to have someone to talk to during the day when she’s at home, juggling the kids and the writing.
Ada Cousland has two toddlers and a baby so they set up a few playdates when they can. She’s also married to a much older man so they find themselves talk about the specific advantages and disadvantages of that when they get some time to themselves. Clara and Kent have been discussing the future a lot recently – he can imagine a third child but wants it soon, or not at all. Since they need the help of their fertility clinic to conceive, there’s a bit of paperwork to be done as well and time is running out, he claims.
“Ed was very difficult to convince the last time,” Ada confesses. “He felt he was done.”
Clara has to admit she’s the one who feels done in their marriage, that she’s the one who wants life to return a little bit to the way it was before. She knows her new friend is a lot more family-oriented so she doesn’t tell her that most days, what Clara really wants to do is to lock the door to her writing studio and just be left alone.
But it seems Ada can tell because she assures her that Clara is a great mother and that twins must be difficult and that she’s sure they’re getting the best childhood any kids could ever have.
Clara, quietly grateful, soaks it all up.
Since they’re both freelancing they have pretty generous jobs that allow them to work at odd hours, but for some reason Kent has a tendency to go into work to write while Clara gets stuck at home. It’s not something she even thinks he’s aware of, he just wants to write his piece and get it done and since she’s usually sleeping late in the mornings he seems to think she prefers to stay at home while he goes out.
It’s a quiet, nagging sort of irritation in her whenever she thinks about it and tries to understand his reasoning.
At least they always share the work with the twins in the afternoons and evenings.
Putting them to bed is something they typically do together.
And afterwards, if nothing unusual happens, they make an evening snack and eat it together, talking about their days and tomorrow. Clara decides to mention that she wants to be the one to go out, too, that she might be an introvert but that walking around the neighbourhood all day every day is making her brain scream from frustration and lack of inspiration.
She also tells him that she feels like two kids are more than enough, and Kent merely nods and smiles and tells her that he feels that their family is perfect the way it is right now.
If she wants to cuddle with babies these days, Clara knows she can always drive up to the Hiller farm and get her hands full of them. And judging by the way her brother talks, they’re not going to stop having kids for a while yet.